I’ve been looking forward to writing this update all day. Even though I’ve tried and failed to write/journal/blog for 30 days straight in the past, there’s something about taking the first step towards that goal that energizes me.
It’s not that I have a lot to write about. On the contrary, I have no idea where to go with this series of posts, but I think that’s okay.
One of my biggest pitfalls when it comes to attempting new goals is creating unrealistic expectations. For example, I keep telling myself things like “enjoy the process”, “don’t worry about the words on the page”, “keep it simple”. But an even louder voice inside says things like “if you’re going to blog you need to write great work that reaches millions of readers and has a positive impact on the world” or else, “why bother”.
But that’s a limiting belief. Why does my work need to be perfect or even great? Surely there’s value in helping or inspiring just one reader? And what if no one ever reads my writing? What’s the worst that could happen?
I like the fact that big ideas excite me. I just need to work on setting smaller, more realistic goals. I also need to work on execution and sticking with projects, even when the excitement wears off.
Not sure how I segue into gratitude from here, so I’ll just abruptly stop writing about goals and jump right into it.
Today I am grateful for the rain.
Tomorrow we are hosting a pool party, so I’m not so sure I would be as grateful tomorrow. But today I’m grateful.
The rain has helped cool down the temperature outside, which has been in the mid-90s with heat indexes over 100 degrees for the past couple of weeks. Thanks, rain.
My important and stressful task of the day was getting a tag for our new car. What’s so stressful about that you may ask?
We’re over a month late getting it. We’ve driven around rogue for weeks, hoping not to get stopped or have to go through a road block. On top of that, additional late fees have been mounting up.
We worked with a local dealership to find the exact vehicle we wanted, which happened to be in another state. So they bought it from that dealership, picked it up, and delivered it to us. But the paperwork that was supposed to go to our local tax office never arrived. We tried to get the tag a couple of weeks ago before we drove it to the beach for a vaca, but it still wasn’t anywhere to be found.
Today I called the dealership to confirm that the paperwork was sent and who signed for it. Once I had confirmation, off I went to the tax office to get our tag. I was still stressed because of the potential cost of the tag and the additional penalties for being late.
This is a brand new vehicle. Surely our tag is going to cost several thousand dollars. And who knows what the late fees will run.
After spending 20 minutes with the clerk while he inputs the information into the computer, he pulls out a check from the dealership and made the comment “I’m not sure why they sent so little”. The check was for $900. “This is going to be bad. We’re screwed.”, I thought as the clerk calculated our remaining balance.
$1500. “That’s it?!” I thought – knowing there had to be a major miscalculation. But I didn’t question it. I quickly handed the clerk my credit card so I could escape before anyone noticed the error.
Maybe car tags are less than I thought. Maybe our trade-in somehow offset the tax liability. I have no idea why our tag was so little (relatively speaking), but I was pleasantly surprised.
It’s funny how we can get so stressed out over a problem, only to find out it wasn’t nearly as bad as we thought.